What have I been in the midst of such a heartbeat?
It beats of a fertile memory
Of a lazy troubled mind,
And takes refuge in an unarmed degraded will
I am what I ought not to be
I am all the thrones clenched to my feet
And I may and may not be what my mother sees as sweet
For how shall she know?
And how can others perceive
The leeches that dwell in...skin and flesh deep
Leeches of a degraded fetish, of a destroyed will
Leeches of sex, leaches of bad daydreams
Leeches that leave the human out of question
Leeches that just feed...
On what I have never should have seen
On desires leaving the body dry and weak
On a mind indecisive
On a self-meant to wonder on all means
In a world meant to resolve itself by time and years
I stand here contemplating a greater fear
That will bring mine to its knees
That will set me free
And until then, it's this body of yours that will take over my dreams
It's your face under the spell of my touch what I yearn to see
And it's in between those tender thighs of yours is where I want to feast
And what I want to feast
Take me in, for at times I feel lost and weak
Take me in, for at times I feel strong and on my feet
Take me in, for at times I miss you
And at others I miss how it used to feel.
Rami Sarieddine is a poet from Atrine - Al Shouf Area, Lebanon. He moved to Riyadh to pursue a career in mechanical engineering and was later to the music scene there. Rami is the percussionist/drummer for the Riyadh-based band, Erum, and is also interested in literature, especially poetry. Follow him on Instagram for more of his work.
